i'm in love with a kiddd named coreyyyy.

pfftt that xanga was soo long ago ? maybe i'll start again !?

love you babesss.

NEW XANGA !!!

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Wow i havent written in here in forever. Things have been alright, things with me and josh are doing alot better. Well, school is almost over thank god. but im also hardly passing since the beginning of the year i didnt do so good but i got a letter that says im totally being special passed so im liek chaaa damn happy ! well, i dont know.. today im going out to the mall with the girls amelia, bryttnii, kayle, and whoever else to get some stuff for mothers day = ) i cant wait to go up there i LOVE shopping for my mom. Well i dont know what else to write so im just gona update later on. promise. love you ALL.

((M0DELiNG)) H0LLiSTER BUTT0N UP SHiRT & REDMEN CHEERLEADiNG SWEATz

((LiSTENiNG)) L0NELY- - AK0N

((FEELiNG KiNDA)) EXCiTED

MARY-KATE && ASHLEY 0LSEN ARE S0 H0TT RiGHT N0W <3333

WHAT THE FUCK !? NiC0LE && PARiS SPLiT !? N0 M0RE SiMPLE LiFE WiTH NiC0LE !!!! 0H My GAwW HEART BREAK = (

IF Y0U HAVENT N0TiCED KATE M0SS iS FRiGGiN G0RGE0US ..

xTellmeitsOVERx: ur the sweetest gurl ever !!

^ I love people liek that.

Wow this weekend was so fun !! Saturday me and Bryttnii made up and we went tanning. wow i got dark, but yeah. She spent the night and we went over Nicks with Sean and just hung out all night, it was so much fun. Then when we got back to my place we got a little drunk.. haha crazy. Okay so today me and Bryttnii went back to Nicks again and stayed for a lil bit and we just sat around watching tv.. it wasnt that great but whatever. lol.. Nick and Sean are hilarious i love those boys. So liek chaa.. this weekend wasnt all the bad except for Josh didnt ever call and he promised we would, i dont know where this relationship is going but i really really really.. liek him, alot. Well, not much to say but im gona go maybe write later ? Much love <333 SaRA

ugh. i look liek crap .. bryttnii looks beautiful = )

well whatever i'll edit this later. <3333

Gemma Ward is so fucking cute i love her eyes .

Shit, i want those boots.

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301-500 cals: 4pts  

8+ glasses of water: 5pts

40-50 minutes of cardio: 4pts

Updating my journal 1pt

Total Points: 14 pts

Thats my diet for this month.. Including relaxing, tanning, cheering, dancing, stretching, talking, shopping, and hanging out with new friends. Wow, looks liek a plan ha. Lets see my goal is to be 80 lbs again. Im at 92 right now. Hell yes, i cant wait. I also need to drink TONS of water. No more fats. NO NO MORE. hahha .. im really looking forward to being small again. I still am but i need to lose my fat. 92 isnt enough.

Hey Loves. Well I havent written in here in awhile, because you know xanga isnt my damn life. But chaa.. thursday was so much fun ! Me and Angie hung out all day.. we walked around and stuff. Then went to zero zest and saw little herald. ha i love that kid hes fucking adorable. so yeah, then yesterday was so fucked up i dont even know where to begin. That girl I was talking about that always trys to fuck with me and joshs relationship told my friend that she doesnt have a problem with me anymore because she doesnt even know me, and that josh told her a bunch of shit that since "i do shit with every guy" hes using me and that " he doesnt liek me " bullshit thats a lie. He said not to believe anything. But things are still a little messed up and i dont know what to do anymore. I tried talking to him, i wrote him a note.. and he never wrote back then he promised he would call me to talk about things and he never did because he claimed that he saw me kissing my friend tim. 1: I wasnt even with Tim 5 minutes  2: I was literally 3ft away from him. 3: I would NEVER cheat on my boyfriend espically Josh. and 4: There is proof that we didnt kiss because he could ask Tims cousin that was standing there the entire time. Wow, so that really really pist me off so i cried all fucking day and everyone was all asking me what was wrong so it just made me even more upset. This girl Toni was talking to me about it and she made me feel 100x better, and i didnt even cry until after school. So then i get home, and Bryttnii gets mad at me. But, whatever, i was just in a bad mood so liek idk, i prolly was being a bitch. But whatever, shes sopposed to be a bestfriend and know that im in a bad mood and just ignore it. Well, yeah i slept all day from 5:00 till 9:30 and woke up around liek 7 and Josh finally called. Wow, he asked if i could do something but of course i couldnt because my mom was beng stupid at the moment, plus i wasnt dressed and i would take liek 2 hours to get ready. So i told him to call me today and we can figure something out after i go tanning and the mall, unless he wants to come along ? lol... well, yeah, my little Rachel got arrested !! haha im gona kill her. Shes in DH and they dont know how long shes gona stay in there yet shes gotta go to court. Heres what happened. George and Adam got in a fist fight and the cops came and Rachel was there and after Adam got arrested Rachel was dumb and was laughing her ass off because she hates Adam, so the cop looked at her and was liek do you think this is funny ? and shes liek ha.. yeah. and hes liek do you wana go to jail and she was being smart and said ok so she didnt think he would do anything , but he slammed her against the car and she turned around and kicked him in the balls.. HAHAH and then he through her on the ground and hand cuffed her down. Wow, i never would have expected her to be the one to go to jail.  Wow, crazy. Well im out. Much love <333

                                  Don't Rip My Heart

Gisele Bundchen

Shes damn fucking beautiful ... `'

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my song ...

desperate for changing : starving for truth : closer to where i started : chasing after you : falling even more in love with  you : letting go of all ive held onto : im standing here until you make me move: im hanging by a moment here with youforgetting all im lacking : completely incomplete : ill take your invitation : you take all of me now : Im falling even more in love with your : letting go of all ive held onto : im standing here until you make me move : im hanging by a moment here with you : im living for the only thing i know : im running and not quite sure where to go : and i dont know what im diving into : just hanging by a moment here with you : theres nothing else to lose : theres nothing else to find : theres noting in the world : that could change my mind : there is nothing else.. there is nothing else... there is nothing else : desperate for changing : starving for truth : closer to where i started : chasing after you : im falling even more in love with you : letting of all ive held onto : im standing here until you make me move : im hanging by a moment here with you : im living for the only thing i know : im running and not quite sure where to go : and i dont now what im diving into : just hanging by a moment here with you : just hanging by a moment : hanging by a moment : hanging by a moment here with you ......